Commitment.... Where Is It?

And whatsoever you do, do it heartily as to the Lord and not to men.....Colossians 3:23

Commitment means 1. an act of committing to a charge or trust: 2. an agreement or pledge to do something in the future; 3. the state or an instance of being obligated or emotionally.

On March 8th, 1997, I pledged myself to my Husband.  My commitment to Him has been tried and tested but it has never waned.  But in my study tonight it was about committing myself to the Lord.  I have to ask myself, "Am I committed to you Lord?" "Have I been there for you like I have tried to be there for my husband in our marriage?"  My answer would have to be no.  

I have not given the Lord the best of me.  Yet He has called me to be a voice because He still trust me and loves me unconditionally.  My commitment has been toward work and my family and I have only given the Lord a small portion of me.  What have I done with His Love and His Trust???  Do things unto the Lord and not for man!!  Such a powerful statement and yet I have read it so many times but tonight it hit me heart to the core.  God has given me such a wonderful opportunity in life.  I work in His house and I get to come home and be with my family.  Yet at night I watch a movie, read some from the bible (Just enough to make my flesh feel good.) and then fall to sleep.  I want to make a new commitment to the Lord and give Him all that I can give Him.  I need to be accountable to Him.  My work and my calling in life is from Him and for His purpose. I committed to my husband 15 years ago and I am committing my life and all that I do to the Lord.  It's never too late to start over and ask for forgiveness.  I don't want to stand before the Lord and have to say, "sorry Lord but I was tired so I had to watch a movie or sorry Lord I couldn't speak to that person today when they came in for help because I was too busy."  My life I give to the Lord!

Prayer:  Dear Heavenly Father, I thank You for trusting me and Loving me, like no other person can.  Forgive me Lord where I have failed you.  Renew in me my commitment to You.  Let me about your business Lord and not that of man.  Let all that do from home and work and my entire life be for you and you only.  I love You and Praise Your Holy Name.  AMEN   

Life.....

I was sitting here in my bed and felt the urge to write in my blog, which I haven't done in some time.  Much has happened to me and changed for me since October 2011.  I find myself loving life and the meaning of Life.  Life to me is God.  It's following His lead, His will.  How easy it is to find yourself caught up in things that don't matter.  I have been a huge people pleaser my entire life.  My very first memories are those of me trying to please my mom and dad.  I didn't want to color out of the lines because that was not what made them happy.  In the end life doesn't stay within lines of boundaries.  Every day we color outside the lines looking for things that we deep down know we will never find.  God is always there with His eraser fixing those misguided lines.  He doesn't do it because He has to but He does it because He loves us unconditionally, even when I find my own self doing things just to please people.  Sad fact is those people we try most to please are the ones we need to let go of so God can start erasing those pains associated with those individuals.  We are fully aware of the consequences of being a people pleaser yet it is the one thing alot of us strive for.  I want to strive for the Lord now.  My eyes are opening and my heart is overflowing with His love and I no longer want to be held back because of being a people pleaser.  Letting go of that issue and only living to please the Lord will without a doubt, help me to be who He has called me to be.  Praise be to the Lord!!!